“When habits are exhausted our original light appears, blazing through our skull.” – Hongzhi
At first, it felt like the blazing light was emanating from Hanuman’s mirrored, almond eye, entering through my eyes and exiting through the back of my skull. But, as I returned each day, I noticed that I could not tell if the light was exiting through the back of my skull or entering through the back of my skull and the origin of the light felt less centered in Hanuman and more like it was emanating from everything.
The other image that sprang to mind when I saw Hongzhi’s verse, was a worn out shoe. The mind habits that get in the way of experiencing the moment arising, experience myself arising in the moment, seem to get worn out like a shoe. I was interested to see that Hongzhi said that the habits get exhausted not that we get exhausted, it reminded me that the thought that we are a self is one of the habits that gets exhausted.
Rather than framing the issue as having unhelpful habits, we are invited to explore the possibility that we are an unhelpful habit. The better attention I pay to the shoe/habit, the faster it wears out and the more quickly the original light blazes from everything.